Wednesday, March 31, 2004

    i think she notices, maybe she doesn't... at least one thing's for sure, i've made up my mind already, and nothing's gonna change that =)

defining himself: Shawn

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

    studied monetary policy today..it was fun! somehow its just the excitement of seeing how people analyze things and the different perspectives being offered..most of all i guess its most appealing factor is that it literally the science behind human behavior towards the practicalities of everyday life. sadly..i realised that course material for 'A's is highly "yawn-inducing"...the econs lect today was kinda lame..cos lyke she only went thru 3 pages for 2 whole periods..which surprisingly enough is never being used...hahaa..given the emergence of the more powerful and pre-dominant ISLM analysis of effect of i/r on the national output....oh well...its surprising why they don't just teach ISLM in replacement of the current model..cos its easier...faster...and has wider usage esp in appliation in observing the cumulative effects of fiscal and monetary policy being applied together..which most countries use...not to mention that ISLM became the cornerstone for the re-inforced rise in prominence of keynesian theory in the 1950s...

anyway, tomorrow's competition against mjc, i'm resting..yay! that's reallie cool, cos then i get to recover mentally...so exhausted recently..as in squash-wise..i feel as if i reallie need some time away from competitive squash to rediscover my touch..and feel of the game..instead of running around picking balls lyke i'm doing now...-sigh-

defining himself: Shawn

Sunday, March 28, 2004

    so many things are happening at the same time...its making me kinda creaky...its not that they're all bad (neither are they all good), but its just the sheer load of things ALL OCCURING and DEMANDING ATTN at the same time that makes me so confused -sigh- i also realized that i'm not yet reaching my full potential, as in i'm sure that there's a lot more that i can do or contribute if i just stop lazing arnd (ie. a nice term for slacking) and get to work, somehow it seems that the inertia is kinda great for me...though i'm thankful that once i get started, i usually get along quite fast...

listening to capriccio yesterday made me kinda sad...cos it was lyke its so niCe, but then its a pity that i didn't take up music...i wld quite willingly trade playing squash to be able to play the flute for instance....(which btw, i think is the coolest instrument in the whole band)...maybe its partly cos i'm reallie getting v. bored at squash, c'mon let's face it, how interesting can hitting a ball against the wall be? isn't it just so weird of me to wanna do something which i might not excel in, but at the expense of something else that i've already done so well in? i can imagine myself having a passion to want to make music, to keep training and training to become better and better, but not for squash...its lyke the more i play, the more sick of it i become and then when i finally get too sick of it lyke i am now, i just stop playing so that i can at least hope to regain some glimmer of interest in it...how sad. though perhaps one can take comfort in the constant false senses of victories and wins, and the alsolute lack of respect for cca pts. its disgusting

i'm going down to the 10th ministerial forum next monday, dpm lee's the guest speaker..shld be an interesting talk, and its probable that other members of the cabinet will be present...that's probably the only thing that i'm looking ahead to..then again, i'm not too sure...

defining himself: Shawn