..Rêve Sans Frayeur..

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

    
everytime i post, it seems to be either during times of great distress or great restlessness....now i think its probably the former....promos are just around the corner, but i'm not too concerned maybe..probably cos i do actually lyke studying for exams...its lyke this huge challenge to your discipline and your organisational ability...

lotsa things happened..some good some bad, but then again, things change, and in the long run, its really difficult to pin-point if a change is for good or for worse....i'm at the crossroads of everything...and sometimes i wonder if this is yet another one of life's challenges? problems appear everywhere..and i mean everywhere...and wellz, sometimes i wonder if i've the capacity for it all...

my handwriting's changing..and wellz...usually that's a sign of personalities changing and a paradigm shift in a person's character.....i'm not too optimistic, but i suppose only time will tell...sometimes i feel as though i'm almost walking thru all this alone... and yet strangely..i'm not too affected by it...maybe its just an overall detachment to things because of over-compartmentalisation? or perhaps i'm just not really ready to fully commit myself to anything that i withdraw at the first sense of danger...

i've always asked myself how open i am...enough to withstand emotional infedility? strong enough to be receptive to all thoughts? i'm never figured...wellz...maybe i'll learn more abt myself when i get to it....

defining himself: Shawn